A Thousand Years - Christina Perri

第一次听到这首歌是在国铨的周年纪，他的小龙龙娓娓念出歌词，依稀觉得这歌词很熟悉，原来是电影 “暮光暮光-破晓” Twilight - Breaking dawn 的主题曲，女主角贝拉在正式嫁给吸血鬼爱德华的时候播放这首歌。每次听到电台播放这首歌我的泪水都会情不自禁夺眶而出，我不知道为什么？K说：Because you are thirst of love。当爱情造成的伤害越多，爱情的门槛就会越高，能够跃过的就越少。也许真如歌词所言，必须经历千灾万劫才能等到那个跃过的人？

Heart beats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt

Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

(Chorus)

I have died everyday

waiting for you

Darlin' don't be afraid

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

(Verse 2)

Time stands still

beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away

What's standing in front of me

Every breath, 

Every hour has come to this

One step closer

(Chorus)

I have died everyday

Waiting for you

Darlin' don't be afraid

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I'll love you for a 

Thousand more

And all along I believed

I would find you

Time has brought

Your heart to me

I have loved you for a 

Thousand years

I'll love you for a

Thousand more

One step closer

One step closer

Crawling Back To You - Chris Daughtry

英文 crawling back to you 的意思不是爬向你，而是恳求原谅 begging for forgiveness 的意思。喜欢 Chris Daughtry 爆发力的嗓音，I can't stop playing this song over and over again.


Lessons learned, bridges burned to the ground,
And it's too late now to put out the fire,
Tables turned, and I'm the one who's burning now,
Well I'm doing alright,
'Til I close my eyes
And then I see your face,
And it's no surprise.

[Chorus:]
Just like that I'm crawling back to you,
Just like you said I would yeah,
I swallow my pride,
Now I'm crawling back to you,
I'm out of my head,
Can't wait any longer,
Down on my knees, I thought I was stronger,
Just like that, like you said I'd do,
I'm crawling back to you.

Time can heal, but the scars only hide the way you feel,
And it's hard to forget how I left you hanging
On by a thread, when everything is said, I will regret it, yeah,
I was doin' alright, thought I could make it,
Then I see your face and it's hard to fake it.

[Chorus:]
Just like that I'm crawling back to you,
Just like you said I would yeah,
I swallow my pride,
Now I'm crawling back to you,
I'm out of my head,
Can't wait any longer,
Down on my knees, I thought I was stronger,
Just like that, like you said I'd do,
I'm crawling back to you.

If you could find a way, to forgive everything, I know you would.
And I would take it all back, give if only I knew that I could.

Lessons learned, bridges burned to the ground.
And it's too late now, to put out the fire.

[Chorus:]
Just like that I'm crawling back to you,
Just like you said I would yeah,
I swallow my pride,
Now I'm crawling back to you,
I'm out of my head,
Can't wait any longer,
Down on my knees, I thought I was stronger,
Just like that, like you said I'd do,
I'm crawling back to you.

I'm crawling back to you [3x]

大雨的夜晚

我还记得当我刚搬到八打灵的时候彻夜难眠，大雨滂沱的夜晚和昨晚大雨的夜晚极似，那时候我心里极为不安，似乎感觉到母亲的泪水化成大雨淋到我身上，她也告诉我她失眠了好几个夜晚，就这样在八打灵过了四年，从来没有失信每个周末回家的承诺，而她也已经习惯我只在周末出现在家里。

夜晚的滂沱大雨比较四年前的想家情怀淡了一些，反而顾虑八打灵会不会变成水城，如果大雨再持续下几个小时，情况会变成怎样？众所周知一旦豪雨还袭，首都路况一定积水，瘫痪。精明通道无法隔离水流与车辆同时使用，毕竟技术上有所不足。

寒冷的雨天，被子里似乎也透着寒气，赶紧起身调小风扇的速度，被子紧紧的裹着全身，倒头继续睡。当熟悉的体温已经不在，向往愈是枉然，只有自我调适，所有因为爱所造成的伤害，唯有用更大的爱才能弥补，仰赖上帝是非常有效的途径，我相信也是唯一的途径，因为心灵的缺憾，并非物质可以代替的。我常警醒，审察，是否为那不知期限的转变做好准备调适，我不断仰赖地那不是不休止的雨天。